Jennette McCurdy shares her story on Red Table Talk Wednesday about years of suffering in silence with her abusive mother, Debbie, who died from cancer in 2013.
The Nickelodeon sitcom ‘iCarly’ star is featured this week on a new episode of Facebook Watch’s Red Table Talk, where she shares her thoughts with co-hosts Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith, and Adrienne Banfield Norris.
In a press release, the 30-year-old actress spoke about decades of torment, exploitation, and manipulation inflicted by her mother.
During an interview, McCurdy narrates an email she received from her mother about seeing a photo of her online.
‘I’m Glad My Mom Died’ is McCurdy’s new memoir, in which she recalls childhood fame and her past struggles.
McCurdy’s book describes Debbie’s email beginning with, “I am so disappointed in you.”. The message shocked Jada, Willow, and Adrienne when they heard it.
As McCurdy puts it, “‘You used to be my perfect little angel, but now you are nothing more than a little’ — all caps — ‘slut, a floozy, all used up.'”
The mail included, “‘And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. I saw you rubbing his disgusting hairy stomach. I knew you were lying about Colton. [So] add that to a list of things you are: liar, conniving, evil.”
In the mail, Debbie continued, “‘You look pudgier too. It’s clear you’re eating your guilt. Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. Sick! I raised you better than this. What happened to my good little girl?”
“Where did she go, and who is this monster that has replaced her? You’re an ugly monster now. I told your brothers about you, and they all said they disown you just like I do,” she added. “We want nothing to do with you. Love, Mom — or should I say Deb since I am no longer your mother? P.S. Send money for a new fridge; ours broke.’ “
With a laugh, McCurdy remarks, “The P.S. gets me,” causing Willow to exclaim, “Wow!”
Throughout her book, McCurdy discusses her struggles with disordered eating and her journey to recovery. Even though she maintains a good relationship with her brothers, the star recently told in an interview, “I did not know how to find my identity without my mom.”
She added, “And I am not going to lie; it was very hard to get here. But now, I am at a place in my life that I never would have thought was possible. And I finally feel free.”